All About Our Fathers
All About Our Fathers is the second collaboration of three poets exploring their relationship with a parent in all its complexities.
From a father's vice like grip on youth, a cigar tamponing his lips, a smell of gunshot as he enters the kitchen, these fathers evoke memories embedded in the senses. Blue eyes glimmer in the green-screen night as fathers drive towards a rocky beach or a field of honey locusts as if intent on healing the conflict between shadow and light.
Vasiliki Albedo
Vasiliki Albedo's poems have most recently appeared in Poetry London, The Poetry Review, Oxford Poetry, AGNI, Beloit Poetry Journal, Wasafiri, Magma, SPAMzine and The Rialto. She won The Poetry Society’s 2022 Stanza competition, was a finalist in Frontier's Global Poetry Prize 2023 and has been commended in the National Poetry competition, the Hippocrates Prize and the Ambit competition. She lives in Greece and consults development organisations combating poverty and climate change.
My brother crouches by a car with a grenade.
I am sitting behind him on the couch, my head
on my father’s chest rolling with his raspy breath
as he polishes his gun. Our mother’s in the kitchen
slicing onion into the tomatoes, oblivious to the M67
under my brother’s thumb, as he presses
on the X button killing a couple of guys.
I am letting him take extra turns, happy
on this homely afternoon, with rain percussing
the roof and gunfire interrupting like laughter
in a sitcom. I hardly notice the disturbance
until the air cracks open, and I turn to see
the pane smashing, my father questioning
his hand. I thought it wasn’t loaded he says,
as we search the balcony for the bullet
that almost took my brother away.
Mary Mulholland
Mary Mulholland’s poems are recently published in The Rialto, 14 Magazine, Raceme, Finished Creatures, Stand and several anthologies. Recently she won 3rd prize (equal) in Wolves Lit Prize, came 3rd in Teignmouth Competition, was shortlisted for the Aesthetica and Bedford Prizes and longlisted in the National Poetry Competition, 2022. She is also an occasional shepherdess. Her debut pamphlet What the Sheep Taught Me (Live Canon) was published in 2022, www.marymulholland.co.uk @marymulhol
My father paints cities and landscapes
For over an hour he stares across sun-bleached
terraces to Mtafa, his smoke-blue eyes blinking
beneath a fixed frown, studying how light falls
on distant sandstone. Then the tinkling of his brush
clouds the glass, and he draws the sable over
raw, a glistening line. A dip of water before
adding burnt and cobalt blue to make a brown
mess of the white enamel lid, in contrast
to the mathematical clarity of his buildings.
As if he's intent on settling the conflict between
shadow and light, giving each its space. Spare brushes
like soldiers in a row. I ask why he never paints
people, and he makes me stand by the oleander,
for an age, my hand raised towards a bird
that's not there.
Simon Maddrell
Simon Maddrell is a queer Manx man, thriving with HIV and living in Brighton & Hove. He’s published in sixteen anthologies and numerous publications including AMBIT, Butcher’s Dog, Poetry Wales, Stand, The Moth, The Rialto, Under the Radar, Ink Sweat and Tears, The New European, Morning Star and Long Poem Magazine. Simon was first-runner up in the Frogmore Poetry Prize 2020 and highly commended in The Winchester Poetry Prize 2021. In 2020, he was longlisted in The Rialto Nature and Place Competition. Simon’s debut pamphlet, Throatbone, was published by UnCollected Press in July 2020. Queerfella jointly-won The Rialto Open Pamphlet Competition, 2020. Simon's upcoming pamphlets are Isle of Sin (Polari Press, March 2023) and The Whole Island (Valley Press, July 2023). https://instabio.cc/simonmaddrell
Chalking gravestones with Dad tracing family logic ––
inscribed, fading ancestors, crumbling islands of stone.
Polaroids of people gone, re-faced for posterity,
white-powdered cheeks, dust marks death on my pants.
Both watching gravestones falling out of the colour TV,
tombs advertising AIDS cracking the mantelpiece,
Rock Hudson’s Dynasty crashing the spotlight,
those disowned corpses engraved nowhere.
Nowhere to hide, like lamping wild rabbits,
headlight executions reflecting my fear
of myxomatosis spreading, swollen-eyed deaths
of epidemic proportions discussed in armchairs
with Dad, puffing his care for island burrows.
Ravaging wild rabbits, sea kale desolated
at Prospect Cottage, like Derek. Sebastiane
and Caravaggio my celluloid palliation in VHS.
HIV –– a greater rabbit-shocked fate, but still
my gravestone stands, waiting, chiselled,
painted peacock pink.
